| Life has certainly changed in last two years. But this is not about the change. Its yet again about the thing that hurt me the most..giving my all to someone who doesnt care... well..the worst part is I cant leave him.. No I dunt understand why i cant leave him...he treats me badly..he s rude to me...he s selfish..and i come like last on his priority list...
but still...still...i just cant walk away from him..why am i still here?why cant i leave a person who makes me cry evday..?why cant i leave a person who will just watch me cry and wont even react?why cant i leave a person for whom i mean nothing?
I have given him my all....i thought may be a lot of love will change him one day...i thought he will love me back the same way as i do one day....may be things will after all be right between us one day...
but the day hasnt come....and here i am sitting again...cryin...miserable...fighting the pain...all alone...and i still doesnt have the courage to leave him...wat s stoppin me?wat m i scared of..?
i am not sure...i jus know i am in a lot of pain and i cant do anythin about it...it hurts...it hurts like crazy...doc told me recently this pain is going to make things worse for me soon...i know i can be in a deep shit if i dunt get out of my depression soon....i know the only way out of this pain is to move out of this relationship..but i just cant...i dunt have the strength..may be i love him way too much ....wat is this?is this love?is this really love??.... |
long time.. so this is whats keeping u busy