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| Sunday, March 22, 2009 |
| time to change |
Life is soon going to change. I am at the crossroads again..new place ..new people..new experience..
But I am still not able to get over my previous experience. I ruined evrything that was nice in my life..and also ruined the time I have always waited for..
I need just one chance to correct it all...I am not quite sure how I will do it , but I wanna do it.. Tomm results going to be out and life is going to go either ways...for good or worse...I am not sure ..but it is surely going to change a lot of things..
But I am not sure what exactly to learn from my past exp..was it wrong to have good intentions for evone?was it wrong to be frens with people who were nice to u?was it wrong to trust people?was it wrong to expect world ard me to be nice?was it wrong to expect ur own frens to be nice?
so should i be mean nice and always suspicious?should i be a loner?should i jus stop expectin nice ppl in my life?
I am not sure..I dunt know what I am goin to change about myself in my new life, but I gotta do smthing..Honestly speakin , I love being the way I am ..I love being naive...I love to feel pure hearts around me...I really dunt wanna change :-( but I will have to chnage...I cant let people hurt me again..
This is not wat I expected life to be like wen I grow up...:-( |
posted by Y.M. @ 9:36 AM  |
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| Thursday, March 12, 2009 |
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"Did it mean anything to you?"
"Yes..It did..I like you, but I am not sure. I find you cute. But I like her as well. I am confused. You are my best friend and even she is such a good friend. I cant ditch her. I am not sure what to do."
"Listen ...lets just forget it. You dont love me. And thats all I care about. But you should have thought at least once before kissing me. It was my first kiss. It meant so much to me..Anyway, We will still be friends. I love you a lot and I am not going to spoil our friendship cuz you did something stupid."
"Hey ..stop..I am sorry..I know I was stupid..............hey dunt go.."
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"You fine na...?"
"of course..i am fine...i am over all that...dunt worry.."
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"I am not fine. I hate this..I hate the fact that I kissed when I dunt even love you. I hate the fact that you dunt love me. I hate the fact that my first kiss was not any love story .. I hate the fact that you like someone else. I hate the fact that my parenst trust me so much. I hate the fact that its going to kill them. I hate the fact that I dunt feel pure anymore...I hate myself..." |
| posted by Y.M. @ 11:24 AM |
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